Sunday, August 15, 2010
|4:46 PM|
|4:46 PM|
.Dream 40: Failure?.
I totally don't understand why are people so selfish. Is it because I'm not clear enough? Or Is it because I didn't mention something? Why when someone else is trying to work so hard for it. There're still people whom can just think about their own stuffs. Maybe I'm not fierce enough. But this is just me. So what now? Be like what "he" said? Or just remain as what I am now? Sometimes, I just wanna scream at people. Tell people that, life is not just about having fun and caring about your own stuffs. But I'm sure even if I do that, they won't understand at this point of time. It's just that they didn't experienced it before. I mean, there're also people even up to their point of death, they won't understand it, it is just because they don't have the good fortune to be able to experience. Thus, they wasted their lives. I kept saying that, no matter how people react, it is all about my own actions. If I'm not good enough, then I shouldn't say others, and if I did something wrong, I cannot blame others for reacting the way I did. Seriously speaking, I really have no idea on how to work on it. This mess that I've created with my own bare hands. This mistake I've made. This wrong choice that I've decided. How? How do I apply Gakkai Values into it?
When you mentioned that you don't need my help. I really felt insignificance, like I'm just a normal hi-bye friend to you. I mean, ya, sometimes people do need time for somethings, but I do wish that you could at least share with me what happen. It's not like people doesn't care about you, I mean, I care. Seriously. I'm your friend, your comrade, nakama. I do believe in everything you said, but I just wanna help. I'm not trying to scold you or take away your value, I just wanna do 3 things, help, help and help. Maybe you really don't need my help. Maybe I can't even do anything to help. But as your nakama, I could at least know, understand and be beside you to fight together...... It is not like I don't belong here. I do! I'm also concern with many things...
Normally, at this point of time, I would say that I do think that I'm a failure for this part. But not today. Just because I witnessed what happened on Saturday itself. I know it's not about blaming anyone or anything, and definitely not about blaming myself. It's about you changing it. Changing your environment, changing the people around you as well as changing the non-living things around you. I got someone that I want to report my victories to. I cannot let him wait nor disappoint. I mustn't give up, I mustn't retreat. I MUST DO MY HUMAN REVOLUTION! It's now or never.
Turning Winters All Into Spring.
SSA
Singapore Soka Association is a Buddhist organisation established to promote understanding and practice of Buddhism. Buddhism teaches that every individual has the potential to become enlightened in his or her lifetime. Each person has within, the power to overcome life's challenges, to live a life of value and be a positive influence in one's community, society and the world. Soka in Chinese means Value Creation. Please go SSA Website for more info.
FBodz
Having dance as my passion. Foreign Bodies is the hip hop/street dance club in NYP that I just joined. Not much performance now. I'll update more next time! More updates are in Foreign Bodies Blog
SRN
Every month, we'll have our district discussion meetings where we'll learn and discuss more about Buddhism and Life. This is split by the chapter and district we are in. I'm in Serangoon North Chapter, district 4, together with my parents! We normally have several platforms for our youths. We had a Chapter Friendship Gathering where we invite our friends to our center to know more about our Buddhism, and during then, our youths together put up and short skit and dance! We also have BBQ session to celebrate the success of our Chapter Friendship Gathering and also Pot Luk Session for our youths in SRN to bond more together!
ITAC
I was in ITAC from OCT 07 to JUN 09. ITAC is an institution that is under our Student Division [SD] in SSA. Student Division members consist of all tertiary students in Singapore, from all JCs, ITEs, Polys, to University and also Private Schools. ITAC stands for Institute of Technical, Arts and Commence, which consist of all the private schools in Singapore. In ITAC, we study intensively into Buddhism and our Mentor, Daisaku Ikeda. We also encourage our members and leaders to do our best in our studies and work, and become Future Leaders of the Intellectual World to lead people to happiness! ITACSD Blog
NYPSD
I've just transfered from ITAC to NYPSD during this year, June. NYPSD is another institution in SD. Our members and CICs [Campus-In-Charge] are students all studying in NYP! We usually meet up in NYP itself or SYC [Soka Youth Center] to study Buddhism, chant together, encourage each other and most importantly to create more values in our and other's life! Anyone that is studying in NYP and interested learn about Buddhism or wish to join our activities can feel free to contact me!
HCF
Hugs and Chatterbox Family is my clique when I was still in FD [Future Division, which consist of all the secondary school students]. The group started to formed in Dec 07. We mainly encourage each other thru Buddhism and dance together to perform. HCF had performed a spirit booster dance item for Chingay 07, hip hop dance for FDGM 08 [Future Division General Meeting] and SD Anniversary 08!
FLINT 1
FLINT stands for Future Leaders In Niche Training. It is a training course in FD [Future Division], which train us to be a better person and also to be future leaders of SSA. Currently FLINT have already come to the sixth batch and I'm proud to say that I'm in the first batch, which our trainings was during Feb 06 to May 06. But we didn't just stopped there. FLINT 1 has continued to do a project in FD Sports Meet during June 06, Ignites Concert during Aug 06, Reunion during Nov 07, Sensei's 80th Birthday Present Making during Dec 07, CNY Light Up Hip Hop Dance as Trainers during Nov 08 to Jan 09 and FLINT 1-5 Kenshu during Jan 09! And I strongly believe that, there'll be more to come!
Dynamo
Dynamo is a group in Chingay 07, where I get to know most of my best friends in Gakkai now! Even through, it wasn't a very long training period, but that time was definitely the best dance trainings I ever had. And up til now, we are still have reunion meet ups!
FD-Coaching
FD-Coaching is a Coaching Class started off by EngPeng, Jerry, Laura, Alvin, QiJun and me! It is an offical group in FD that fully in-charged by SD Students. The purpose to set up FD-Coaching is to help our juniors in their studies towards 'O/N' Levels, encourage them in from our own experiences and also bring them back to Faith. Currently FD-Coaching is in-charged by Ivan from NYPSD. For more information, please go, FD-Coaching Blog
DA02
DA02 is my class in NYP - School of Interactive and Digital Media - Digital Media Design (Animation) Course. Being the noisiest, most positive, cheerful and definitely most outrageous class in DMD(A). We have being complained by many lecturers during the first month of school. But now, we are proud to say that we do not receive anymore complains! Haha! I'm really happy to be in this class.